What is the meaning of Life if not Love .

My experience of True Love.

Everyone has some goals in life and so did I . To be someone , earn respect , to be able to provide to my people , family , friends . I was very focused on my work for years, I didn’t like being disturbed , avoided family functions , had a very small friend circle that I met once a week or so. I thought that everything in life depends on career and that i have to be very successful and that is what a ideal life is . But I was wrong .

I love to sit alone , talk to myself . Through this, I discovered deeper meaning behind life . Being successful , yes it does deliver smiles to your family because they root for you , it makes them happy . But does it makes me happy ?

I thought to overcome disrespect , sadness or depression , one had to work more harder and prove themselves to the world . Work on basic emotions . Yes it does provide happiness when you win but that happiness is fleeting .

Last year , when I was heart broken , I followed the same pattern . I worked very hard but I was happy only on the days I won. I feel trapped in this cycle , it does provide oxygen for few days but other days still felt like vacuum. I realised something was missing , there was an emptiness , hollowness to my life . I tried distracting myself and keeping myself busy . Distractions were like clouds , they go away and in the end how can you ignore the sun ,you will feel the heat , the presence will be felt .

I find myself stuck between exhaustion-tired of running from love and tired of loving someone so deeply . Idk what the future holds but i dont want my story to be an average one , i dont want people to call my love average . I dont do Average .

Maybe I’m not the happiest in love, but I feel lucky to love someone this much. I feel sorry for those who fear love or don’t know how to express it. Because at the end of the day-what is the meaning of life, if not love?